Archive - November, 2009

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I consider myself a “people” person.

When I used to live in Puerto Rico, around 4-5 years ago I has a pretty active social life.

I would go out with friends pretty much everyday of the week.

I was a Youth Leader, so I was with the Youth all the time.

All the time.

I got burned out.

I needed a break.

I moved to Dallas and decided to spend some time by myself and rest.

Instead of simply resting I became anti-social.

I have friends but I don’t go out a lot.

I think it’s good to be alone some times.

But…

I went from one extreme… to the other.

That’s not good.

Life was not meant to be lived alone.

This is going to change.

It’s All Good…

Today I spent some good time with  my Dad. We always have some great conversations which always show me how wise and experienced in life my Dad is and how much I still have to learn, good stuff. We stopped at the home of my childhood, where I spent most of it and it’s incredible how little things I saw could stir my mind and bring memories from my childhood. Something so simple as a stained floor, a plant pot or a tree can just stir your mind and remind you of times when life was not as complicated, and it felt good. But even though I am a grown adult now and life is harder than it used to be in many ways I am thankful for what I’ve seen and been through, good times and bad times, it has all made me the man I am now and will help me in becoming the man that I am to be. I think I’ve always been a very optimistic person, I like to see good and purpose on every situation on every hardship as difficult as they may be. As I have written before, 2009 has tested me on that and right now I’m thinking about it. No matter if I don’t know where I am going, what I’m doing, or what I will do, It’s all good.

There is always a bigger picture… and I am not the one painting it.

Here are some of the photos of my trip so far… The property where I grew up, My Aunt’s Christmas wonderland, some great food, My dad flying his airplanes, My brother, Thanksgiving, my Grandma and me on my Mom’s pink snuggie.



Thankful

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I am in my hometown of Isabela in Puerto Rico as I write this post. The distinct smell of burning charcoal and turkey fill the air. I can hear roosters crowing, cars speeding, dogs barking and people yelling, the all too familiar sounds of Puerto Rico. I wasn’t planning on coming but decided to because I know it would be good for my mom to see me and it would be good to spend some time with her, my dad and my brothers.

I just woke up not too long ago and started thinking on what I am thankful for, being that today is Thanksgiving. Let me start by saying this, 2009 has not been the best year for me. It has been a year full of personal struggles, I’ve been giving in to things that I really don’t want in my life and I haven’t made the best decisions. In trying to make my life better I have thought so much of the changes that I want to see happening that I have become consumed with this to the point of getting stressed and depressed when I see that nothing is changing. I know that there has to be goals, something to look forward too, but not at the expense of being miserable in my present situation. In wanting to have a happy future I forgot to have a happy present… and that sucks. I wanted changes to happen this year, professionally, socially and in relationships and they did not happen as I envisioned them. That doesn’t mean that changes will not happen, it just means that I have to wait.

All of a sudden, my mind tried to trick me into thinking that there wasn’t a lot to be thankful for. I know that’s a humongous lie. I have a lot to be thankful for, a lot. And even though things haven’t worked the way I expected them to I have been very blessed this year.

I am thankful for:

God’s mercy and his relentless love for me.

A family that loves me.

Purpose, because even if I don’t know what it is I still know I have one.

My best friend Ben, for his willingness to stick by me when things go bad and for his accountability.

A healthy body and mind.

A job in a place that touches the lives of people around the world.

The opportunity to have traveled as much as I’ve been able to.

Friends.

Twitter. Why? Because it has provided the opportunity to meet some awesome people that have blessed my life.

My blog, it has provided an outlet to share stuff like this.

These are only some of the things that I am thankful for, I know I have missed many. If you are reading this, I am thankful for you, because chances are that you visit often to read my random rambles even if you don’t agree with them all the time. May God bless you and guide you in his purpose.

I Am a Whore

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There are many times in life when we offer all we are to God, we promise to live for him and to give him all we have just to find ourselves, soon after that, doing the same things that we promised we would never do again. This song, by Derek Webb just kicks me in the face… 

I am so easily satisfied by the call of lovers less wild.

I am thankful that, even after denying Jesus, simple men like Peter had the chance to come back and start again. I am thankful that I have been able to come back, time and time again, after messing up, after wallowing in the mud and eating all sorts of crap, I received chances that I did not deserve.

Mercy.

Here’s  the song by Derek Webb… The Wedding Dress.

Lyrics:

If you could love me as a wife and for my wedding gift, your life. Should that be all I’ll ever need or is there more I’m looking for. And should I read between the lines and look for blessings in disguise to make me handsome, rich, and wise. Is that really what you want?

I am a whore I do confess, I put you on just like a wedding dress and I run down the aisle. I’m a prodigal with no way home but I put you on just like a ring of gold and I run down the aisle to you.

So could you love this bastard child, though I don’t trust you to provide, with one hand in a pot of gold and with the other in your side. I am so easily satisfied by the call of lovers less wild, that I would take a little cash over your very flesh and blood.

Because money cannot buy a husband’s jealous eye when you have knowingly deceived his wife.

Bohemian Rhapsody by The Muppets

My Favorite Christmas Song

I am pretty sure this is my favorite Christmas song. It makes me smile, and smiling is my favorite. I don’t know what it is but this song has a haunting lil’ something that I love. I love The Bird and The Bee and their version of this song is awesome. What’s your favorite Christmas song?

Click here if you can’t see the video…

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