I am in my hometown of Isabela in Puerto Rico as I write this post. The distinct smell of burning charcoal and turkey fill the air. I can hear roosters crowing, cars speeding, dogs barking and people yelling, the all too familiar sounds of Puerto Rico. I wasn’t planning on coming but decided to because I know it would be good for my mom to see me and it would be good to spend some time with her, my dad and my brothers.
I just woke up not too long ago and started thinking on what I am thankful for, being that today is Thanksgiving. Let me start by saying this, 2009 has not been the best year for me. It has been a year full of personal struggles, I’ve been giving in to things that I really don’t want in my life and I haven’t made the best decisions. In trying to make my life better I have thought so much of the changes that I want to see happening that I have become consumed with this to the point of getting stressed and depressed when I see that nothing is changing. I know that there has to be goals, something to look forward too, but not at the expense of being miserable in my present situation. In wanting to have a happy future I forgot to have a happy present… and that sucks. I wanted changes to happen this year, professionally, socially and in relationships and they did not happen as I envisioned them. That doesn’t mean that changes will not happen, it just means that I have to wait.
All of a sudden, my mind tried to trick me into thinking that there wasn’t a lot to be thankful for. I know that’s a humongous lie. I have a lot to be thankful for, a lot. And even though things haven’t worked the way I expected them to I have been very blessed this year.
I am thankful for:
God’s mercy and his relentless love for me.
A family that loves me.
Purpose, because even if I don’t know what it is I still know I have one.
My best friend Ben, for his willingness to stick by me when things go bad and for his accountability.
A healthy body and mind.
A job in a place that touches the lives of people around the world.
The opportunity to have traveled as much as I’ve been able to.
Twitter. Why? Because it has provided the opportunity to meet some awesome people that have blessed my life.
My blog, it has provided an outlet to share stuff like this.
These are only some of the things that I am thankful for, I know I have missed many. If you are reading this, I am thankful for you, because chances are that you visit often to read my random rambles even if you don’t agree with them all the time. May God bless you and guide you in his purpose.