Rand Rambles

I stumble and fall a lot, and even through all my years “knowing” the Truth I am still susceptible to lies. I still struggle trying to live the way I know I’m supposed to live. The great thing is that after the darkest hour, the dawn starts shining in the horizon letting us know, there’s one more day, one more chance.

This song expresses some of the things I often feel. Through my years as a christian, I have come to the realization that I am a wreck, basically a disaster. That’s what makes God so good, that even though I am a wreck, he still showers me with his love. I have seen so many people with their act together, in public, when I know that in private, their life is a mess. I just got tired of it, tired of performing like a good christian, one whose life is all that and a bit more. To all those nicely dressed, TBN Christians: Sorry, I don’t fit your perfection mold, I think I never will. I prefer living everyday knowing that my heart needs Jesus a bit more, than thinking I’ve conquered everything and I am a king. I prefer to be a servant at the feet of the teacher than a prince at his right hand.

I am a wreck and that’s what makes me need my Savior so much more.

Stained Glass Masquerade
Casting Crowns

Is there anyone that fails
Is there anyone that falls
Am I the only one in church today feelin’ so small

Cause when I take a look around
Everybody seems so strong
I know they’ll soon discover
That I don’t belong

So I tuck it all away, like everything’s okay
If I make them all believe it, maybe I’ll believe it too
So with a painted grin, I play the part again
So everyone will see me the way that I see them

Are we happy plastic people
Under shiny plastic steeples
With walls around our weakness
And smiles to hide our pain
But if the invitation’s open
To every heart that has been broken
Maybe then we close the curtain
On our stained glass masquerade

Is there anyone who’s been there
Are there any hands to raise
Am I the only one who’s traded
In the altar for a stage

The performance is convincing
And we know every line by heart
Only when no one is watching
Can we really fall apart

But would it set me free
If I dared to let you see
The truth behind the person
That you imagine me to be

Would your arms be open
Or would you walk away
Would the love of Jesus
Be enough to make you stay

Well if the invitation’s open
To every heart that has been broken
Maybe then we close the curtain
On our stained glass masquerade

Is there anyone that fails
Is there anyone that falls
Am I the only one in church today feelin’ so small

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