Have you ever thought: What if? What would’ve happened if you had made better choices? Or just different choices.
I find myself thinking how many of the wrong things that I have done have made a negative impact in who I am today, and my current situation. I believe that small decisions that I have taken have closed doors for blessing in my life. Now that I look back, I wish I would’ve done differently. It’s hard to see what I have missed. And yeah, I know that there is still opportunities to make things better but at the moment, well, it sucks.
I am a very positive person and as long as I have another day, I am okay, I know things will turn out alright. But even thinking that and having experienced the amount of blessings I’ve been able to experience I realize how much more I could’ve enjoyed if I had said no to some things.
Many good things have escaped my hands for my messy choices.
I want to learn from that to not let even better things escape.
I don’t know if this is how life works but it is what I feel, every time I choose something bad in my personal life I feel how something in me stops, I feel like something in my life gets delayed until I get my act together. It sucks.
Anyway, thank God for his mercy and for new days with new opportunities.
I feel like I could have written this post, word-for-word. I know how you feel first-hand. Maybe not the same circumstances, but choices I have made have completely changed the course of my life. I sometimes wonder “what-if” too, but I also think of all of the positive things that Imight have missed out on had I not made the choices I made. I don't know, it's a weird thing.
Yeah, that's true I can also see how many positive things have come from some of my choices. Ending up in Dallas and traveling quite a bit have been positive and exciting at times(even though I don't like Dallas that much. But I guess, “What if?” is a question that will always be there, no matter what.
Regret is a difficult thing sometimes. It's makes sense to regret obviously bad decisions, but sometimes I find I regret some things I had no way of knowing would turn out bad. I mean, you make decisions the best you can with the information you have on hand at the time. But if I could go back, there are a lot of things I would do differently. I don't regret the lessons those things have taught me, though.
The things I regret the most, I think, are the missed opportunities. Things I could have done or experienced that I didn't. Especially when the reasons I had for not doing them were pretty lame.
On this topic, I take a lot of comfort from Romans 8:28 (God works ALL things together for good…). “All” is an inclusive term, which I take to mean that even my mistakes, bad decisions, and poor judgment calls are included in “all things”. I doesn't mean that I don't make things more difficult for myself, but it does give me hope that God will be able to work it all out in the end.
I totally agree with you. That verse is one of my favorites. It keeps me sane.
,Rand , I would enjoy reviewing some of your “messy choices” with you. I think you'd probably find that overall, you are a better person as the result of those decisions and certainly, as a minimum, .. a wiser person! A choice that you made several years ago would , for me at least , be considered “messy” was changing your BA major from Business Administration/marketing to Elementary education. Not only did you end up spending an additional year to get a BA but you essentially ended up closing lots of career oppurtunity doors vs one door; a classroom door, where there is now a long waitlist for the few opportunities that might be available. But hey, you'r smart, creative , have superior communication skills, are willing to work hard for something you really want, … so hang in there , Get to know people who do what you want to do, network, find a cause to get some personal recognition. Apply the time, talent,
and expereince that you have invested in PC/web time and redirect it to something that has a financial payoff! (Idea: create/depict yourself as a cartoon character, find an illustrator or software that allows you to editorialize in a humorous way the kind of crappy things that happen to young people as they grow up, make fun of celebrities and politicians etc. Idea: a cute racoon , (Rand the social bandit, hehehe), they have a lot of curiosity and like to investigate, also mess things up. The probable future realities are many, you probably have considered less than 1 % of them (most people probably even much less than you), does this make sense ? Discuss this with others. Much love and a Bear hug, Dad
Rand: The Social Bandit. Hm, I like that!
Love you Dad!
,Rand , I would enjoy reviewing some of your “messy choices” with you. I think you'd probably find that overall, you are a better person as the result of those decisions and certainly, as a minimum, .. a wiser person! A choice that you made several years ago would , for me at least , be considered “messy” was changing your BA major from Business Administration/marketing to Elementary education. Not only did you end up spending an additional year to get a BA but you essentially ended up closing lots of career oppurtunity doors vs one door; a classroom door, where there is now a long waitlist for the few opportunities that might be available. But hey, you'r smart, creative , have superior communication skills, are willing to work hard for something you really want, … so hang in there , Get to know people who do what you want to do, network, find a cause to get some personal recognition. Apply the time, talent,
and expereince that you have invested in PC/web time and redirect it to something that has a financial payoff! (Idea: create/depict yourself as a cartoon character, find an illustrator or software that allows you to editorialize in a humorous way the kind of crappy things that happen to young people as they grow up, make fun of celebrities and politicians etc. Idea: a cute racoon , (Rand the social bandit, hehehe), they have a lot of curiosity and like to investigate, also mess things up. The probable future realities are many, you probably have considered less than 1 % of them (most people probably even much less than you), does this make sense ? Discuss this with others. Much love and a Bear hug, Dad
Rand: The Social Bandit. Hm, I like that!
Love you Dad!