Sometimes I would like to leave everything behind. Move to a third world country and just spend my life serving others. Life is complicated, so many ups and downs and the need to perform can bring so much stress. My mind is tired, when I think I know what I want I realize that I don’t really know what I want. What if what I feel is just a selfish desire of achieving greatness? What if it isn’t God’s will? What if, what if, what if?
Is it wrong that I want to be famous? Is it wrong that I want to have lots of money, even if the reason for this is not to use it on me but to pour it into other people’s lives? I am tired. I’m gonna keep fighting but I definitely need to know if the direction I’m heading is the right one. I guess I will know once I get there and if it wasn’t at least I was moving. The struggles in my life make it so difficult to see myself as a conqueror some times, but I have to keep reminding myself, it could be much worse.
Well, I felt the need to vent a little, I definitely need to invest some time in others, I am coming to the realization that this fight inside of me can be because everything I’m doing at the moment has to do with me, I’m going to school, I am working, I am thinking about my future, I’m spending too much time on my own struggles but basically none of my time is being invested in the lives of others, I need to fix that.
What would you recommend to live a fuller life? A life with more meaning and satisfaction
A fuller life, a life with more meaning and satisfaction? Most people achieve this by getting married and having kids, in the end this usually provides them with their most meaningful experiences in life, even with all the challenges ,…. for better or for worse, that they are confronted with.
The first 2 sentences in your iteration make you an excellent candidate for the Peace Corps. They would love to have you! Check it out!
Also, at 65, having “been there, done that” for literally thousands of types of experiences, and having worked hard for, and then lost a small fortune, I can assure you its not about fame or money. Just continue to touch other people's lives even if in the
smallest ways, a freindly smile, a pat on the back, tucking a$1, 5 or $10. bill in a needy hand. Just think, if you were rich and famous you wouldn't be able to do these simple and personally satisfying gestures! So… have a GREAT DAY SON, You're Dad loves you!DD
Well, you probably know my answer to that question…it's my answer to everything…the first commandment. But what I wanted to say is this: I often feel the way you do and I have to remind myself that God is a very good leader. It is not about my ability to hear…it's about His ability to make Himself heard. Now we do have to be listening, but I know you are and you sincerely want to please Him.
Well, you probably know my answer to that question…it's my answer to everything…the first commandment. But what I wanted to say is this: I often feel the way you do and I have to remind myself that God is a very good leader. It is not about my ability to hear…it's about His ability to make Himself heard. Now we do have to be listening, but I know you are and you sincerely want to please Him.